When someone is incarcerated, they’re not the only ones with a sentence. Yes the rest of us have our freedom but we also have a hole in our lives.

The empty side of the bed that you still reach over and try to hug before you open your eyes and realize you’re alone again. The advice or opinions you want at random parts of the day that you can’t get and just the general comfort of their presence is no longer there.

Your person, the one you vowed to spend your life with is locked up and the for worse part of your vows is being put to the test.

You are being punished for someone else’s actions, and the justice system doesn’t give a fuck about you.

You feel the sting of other’s judgement for staying, for doing what God called you to do. (seriously he did, how else could I make it through this if it wasn’t part of God’s plan for me?)

No, God did not call my husband to be a dumbass, but He did take that dumbass mistake my husband made and used it to make me stronger. He’s showing me the love and mercy he put in me for others.

I do not handle every situation perfectly. I am human. I still struggle with forgiving those who have hurt me in this situation, but I am working on it and I know to ask God for his help. Years ago I wouldn’t have known to do this, I saw forgiving someone as being weak…letting them get away with it. but in truth, not forgiving weakens me.

Unforgivness drains me. it sucks up all of my energy with anger and hate, when the people who hurt me are off living their lives having a good ol time, I’m wasting mine thinking about them, giving them control of my mind.

So I will leave you with this prayer

Lord, I ask you to help me and anyone who is reading this forgive those who have wronged us. Please heal our hearts and make them whole again. Thank you for your grace and mercy towards us. In Jesus’ name Amen

I hope my babbling has brought you a little comfort and has shown you that you are not alone in your struggles.

Please feel free to message me if you need prayers.

Blessings

The Smartass Christian