This demon is so familiar it feels like me.I can’t remember a day that fucker hasn’t told me how worthless I am. His lies feel like truth. It’s so hard to believe anything else
God I feel so fucking alone. You say you’re with me but what does that mean?

I need a hug someone to understand me . I need to stop feeling like shit.

It’s so distracting I can’t be there for anyone or even care what they’re going through because nothing is stopping this pain. I want to scream until my throat bleeds but that will only distract for a moment. I want to blame people but I can’t. I allowed the demons in. I keep letting the fuckers back in.
Even the things I think I want wouldn’t make me happy right now. I’m not even sure happy is real.
As the demons rip at my mind I wonder if I’ll be anything but miserable.